I got a very considerate message from GMC2 about yesterdays antic. I decided to apologize publicly instead of directly. The reason is because I probably ticked off more people than GMC2.
I will start by saying I am sorry I flew off the handle. I do not deal well with any form of critisizm and that is my burden , not anyone elses. I do have thin skin and knew from the start I would have trouble with the feed back. I am trying to learn to skin and deal with comments at the same time and it can get the better of me.
I do agree with your comments about the text in sentinel, and just hated hearing it outloud from a stranger. I had spent a lot of time, deleting hundreds of pictures I could not tolerate and I guess I rushed it off the printing press, but, I had not posted a skin in a long time and was very anxious to do so.Again, my fault, no one elses. I regret pulling sentinel off, but not the rest because in hindsite, as I improve, I saw the roughness of my previous submissions.You all are not missing out on much there, so why care!
I want to also apologize to those who are being slammed for giving me high praise,they were just trying to keep me from doing what I did, quit and leave. I feel bad that I somehow put them in that position to where they felt obligated to ate me high. I know the skin is not a ten, not even a seven, but atleast , I thought, a five or six. So, I was not pleased putting those people in the line of fire for being sensitive to my needs. They did this out of friendship and were just trying to support me, sorry guys.
Closing in on an end soon! But , first, thank you GMC2 for your offer to help and it was a grand gesture. He offered to redo my skin faults without changing my work. Thats a very mature attitude for someone I insulted publicly. But, then again, thats how Vamps and I got to know each other, worked out for me, I got a great teacher. I have no doubt you could offer great assistance, but I really do want to learn as much as possible without help. It is more gratifying.So , for now I will pass on the offer but with great admiration for a great skinner, who could have just said, good riddens to doortech1. I do not know if I covered all if my dirty deeds, if I missed something , let me know and I will try to amend.
I still feel unsure about how the ratings are given and would agree with DaveBax about his theory of no ratings, except that if I was to become a great skinner, I would probably love ratings, so I see where they are important to other skinners so as not to dis them for their talents by including them in the same category as a newbie with mediocre skins. I hope this can help repair some of the bitterness and will strive to be more tough skinned and a lot less offended by comments. It would be up to you all if you want any of my crappy skins reposted, and I do not know about Sentinel and doing changes, I would feel like I was changing it for others and not myself. I came very close to creating my vision with Sentinel, but fell a little short as usual, but ,I always have next time, although I do not know if I will be accepted at WC at this point. Maybe Deviant Art is where you all want me to go, or hell,probably some of you. Again, I am sorry and have learned from this as I do all things in life. DoorTech1.
Ps. I still do not like Nightmare, but, what the heck do I know. I will add for GMC2, even if it is bad, it still got better ratings than my best, where does that put me on the totem pole!
