Jim, please accept my condolences. We'll be here waiting...so do what you have to do, and take your time.
Needless to say, I've seen a lot of death...medicine, war...but that doesn't lessen the impact of "The Second Miracle" (if birth/life is the first, how could death not be the second?).
Just because we don't know what's next doesn't mean there isn't "a next". From my late wife's passing, I learned and can assure you there IS a next.
Holding good thoughts for you!